shitload of pain and all

I want to give you everything I have
while still keeping it all
for myself
And I want to take nothing, not your
freedom, never that
I don’t want to change you
I love you just as you are
shitload of pain and all
for no reason at all: simply
I can see your depths
No, not to drown in
I want to put my own depths
beside yours
and compare them

(First published in Creatrix)

What do you think?